Clearly there’s something wrong with me because I think they’re too cute to be having sex. haha

I’m no clinician/doctor, but I interpreted my score of 9 to mean that I have a bit of a low self image, or lack self-confidence. This is definitely true in my case. But I think the interpretation that the opposite of narcissism could be selflessness or humility must also be considered. Everything is relative and open to interpretation. A mental health professional would probably use the test in conjunction with other knowledge of the patient to come up with a diagnosis.

It is my understanding that the test is used to measure narcissism in the positive only, not to diagnose the opposite. So if that’s the case, you have most likely just ruled out a diagnosis of Narcissistic Personality Disorder.

Wish I could give you more specific answers, but that’s all I could come up with. Hope that helps. Here’s the wikipedia article on narcissism that might point you in the right direction: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Narcissism.

Much love,

Melinda

Of course I remember you. You were like my online AA counterpart. Sorry it took me so long to reply, but I was offline for a bit.

You’re right, the truth always comes out. I’m wrestling with just how alone I feel lately. Spending a week on a beautiful vacation by myself kinda rubbed it in a little. And I have no idea how to meet open-minded people who don’t drink. Sometimes I feel like I am just so disconnected from the world, but that’s nothing new.

At least I know not to drink, even if I want to. I’ve drank on 2 occasions in the past 6 months, and both times I felt like I lost my mind for about a week (and I didn’t even drink much). But it’s all about that moment in there, where I can find a pause that I couldn’t find before.

I’m reading a book about mindfulness and depression, and how the sadness just builds up. So, every time I feel sad, I feel all the sadness that I ever felt, and then I wonder what’s wrong with me and what I can do to fix it. And then I don’t even remember what made me sad in the first place, but I just feel completely inadequate because I don’t know how to get out of it, so there must just be something fundamentally wrong with me. Sounds kinda stupid, but that;s what I’m working on now — finding a moment in that thought pattern to just be.

Anyway, too much rambling. I still feel crazy, drinking or not drinking, men or no men.I just need to figure out how to take a step back and just be.

Good to hear from you. Much luck and happiness to you as well.

Melinda

I wish you much luck in your endeavors and your quest for inner-peace. You are an amazing, honest and introspective person that will come back to you ten fold.
Take care,
Ty

thanks for reading, and commenting. your comment brought me tears when i read it earlier today. i’m happy for your wife — it’s difficult to work through any kind of problem, especially when it requires a great change in perspective, as most problems do, it seems.

melinda